ZINDA HUN MAIN……

Shiskta hua
Dhadkta hua
Apne aap main tadpta hua
Hai kuch saans baki
Abhi bhi
Naa janne kaun le jayega usse bhi
Gair ya apne

Naya chehra
Naye khavab
Na mere liye
Bas us ke liye
Who bhi paanch baras ke liye
Kyun karta hun main yeh paap
Har baar

Kabhi baarishon main dhansa
Kabhi haadson main fassa
Kabhi meri bhartiyata ko khandit kiya
Har baar apne aap ko samjha liya
Ki main to nahin
Mera to nahin
Lekin ish baar kaise smjhayun
Apne aap ko

Kyun rondta gaya mujhe har koi
Kyun bhul gaya
Ki meri bhi zindagi hai koi
Maangi thi jo chand saansen
Who bhi chain se
Na mil payengi
Maut latak
Ya mit jayegi aise hi
Baichain har pal yeh saansen

Yun to yaad hai mujhe ab bhi
Har teen ghante se pehle
Jan gan man gaana
Aur gaa ke apne aap main
Sisak ke reh jana
Kyunki karna
Chahta hun main bahut kuch
Na kar saka bas ulajh ke re gaya
Har baar

Naa ulajhna chahta hun
Na fasna chahta hun
Bas barasna chahta hun
Kyun na fat paya aaj talak
Shayad tha ek intezaar
Ek bhukamp ka
Apne andar ka

Na rukega yeh
Na bhujega yeh
Jo thame rakha tha
Barson apne aap main

Kyun bhool jayun apne
Kulbulahat ko
Kyun begana kar dun
Shahadat ko

Har baar sahi
Ab ish baar nahi
Maangta hun jawab apne aap se
Aur maangta hun jawab
Har kisi se

Hai kisi main himmat
Jo saath de meri
Aur hila de ish duniya ko
Aur samajh paye insaniyat apne ander ki.........

In search of.....

Traveled so far,

been there, everywhere,
even i dont know

where all i have been

just to find

love & peace

a perfect world

where i can understand others better

& others me...

where others love me

& understand me

more i search

more i m confused

confused abt the world

abt the people

abt myself

it is search for love & peace

or search for myself

myself as what i m

or as what others want me 2 b

tired of seeing myself

fit into others wants

all i need is escape

escape from others & myself

i don't know....

just MOKSHA, NIRVANA....

Main Aisa Kyun Hun?

Tanha zindagi tanha safar
dhoondo koi rehgujar
wahi din, wahi raat
dhoondho to dhoondo
wahi ek barsaat
jo samjh sake mere jazbaat
chuppa sakun main apne aansu
aur rok lun ek tufaan
tufaan apne andar ka

Na koi faltu umeed
dusron se, apne aap se
main jaisa hun, bas wahi to hun
kya jo tum khud ho,
wahi tumhara hona koi gunaah hai koi?

Agar sochta hun to dusron ki khushi
woh khushi jo mujhe na mil saki
kya dusron ki khushi sochna
aur waisa karna gunaah hai koi?

Jo kisi ko na mila zindagi main
aur de diya jo tha apne daman main
agar woh khush ho gaya
to kya woh gunaah hai koi?

Agar hai to kiya hai
woh gunaah,
dusron ko khush rakhne ka
sab to khush hain mere aas paas
phir kyun hun main aaj bhi udhaas?

Sab samjhana chahte hain khud ko
main main main sahi
har haalaat main
na mila koi
jo samajh sake mujh ko
mere haalaat ko

Dhoondta hun koi rehgujar
na saath na manzil
agar hai koi umeed
hai to bas ek hansi ek khushi
aur woh bhi dusron ke lab pe

Agar main aisa hun
to koi gunaah hai kya?
Main aisa kyun hun???

Jee Raha Hun Main...

Main
Zindagi ki satranj par
bisaat par
pyada ya fir
takatvar sipahi

Bisaat bichhi hui
ya khelne ke pratispardha se
ya main is pratispardha ka pyada
samajh nahin pata
har baar
har baar pyada ban kar reh gaya
to kaun hai is chakravuyh ka rachnakarta
kismat ya koi aur
kyun jeet jati hai zindagi
mujh se
meri zindagi se

Har chaal har shaks
soch samjh kar
fir bhi meri haar
kyun
soch raha hun main

Koi nahin mere paas
main aur meri tanhai
tanhai se puchu to bhi kya
kyun? kya? ka tak?
akhir kab tak
kyun sahara chahiye kisi aur ka
kisi ko gunahgaar thehraane ka


Jab ki main hun
aur koi nahin
koi nahin
kismat, woh to kabhi mere saath thi hi nahin

Kar raha hun
jee raha hun
jeeye jauynga...

India : 2015

Circa: 2015, Place: India

Mr. Sharma from Ambala has applied for tourist visa to Maharashtra state office in Chandigarh to visit Mumbai, Lonavala & Pune with his family for summer vacation. Granny in Chennai telling stories about Tajmahal to her grand children as UP state office in Chennai has refused her grandchildren students visa for summer camp at Agra. Mr. Prasad in Cuttak sharing his experience of Victoria & Sunderban jungles with his children as there is long waiting list of tourist visas at WB state office in Bhubneswar.

Time is not far away, when this will happen as states will function as independent countries and people from one state will require tourist visa, student visa etc. (job visa is out of question) Stories and experiences will only be shared as there will long waiting list and waiting period in respective state government offices situated in each state capitals.

Choole bhature will be patented by Delhi government, rajma chawal by Punjab government, Kehwa by J & K government, sandesh by WB government, masala dosa by TN government. Incase you want relish the delicacies of other state, you have to pay heavy license fees even for your own taste buds and have to pay royalties for any commercial use.

In my childhood, I have heard that India is a free country. I can go anywhere, work anywhere, speak anything. Indian constitution has given me a right, right of freedom.

Someday “anekta main ekta, hind ki vishesta” & “unity in diversity” will be found in only books.

Zindagi...

Palon main bit-ti zindagi

Zindagi main dhondta kuch pal

Kato to khoon nahin

Khoon ko nahin dard

Jis raah main chala tha

Jaanne kahan gai hai who kho

Fir bhi pata nahin

Kya dhoond raha hun main

Zindagi main kuch pal

Ya palon main bachi kuchi zindagi

Kisi ko samajh pane ki chah

Ya khud ko samjha paane ki

Khara utarna dusron ki ummed par

Ya apni hi ummed par

Aur har baar chotta karna

Apni hi umeed ko

Kisi ko paane ki ummed main

Ulajh gaya hun main shayad

Itni bhhed main bhi tanha, akela

Tanhai main kuch dhoondta hua

Ek pyas, ek ladai

Bheed se

Apne aap se

Issi jadojhahed main gujarti zindagi

Kya hua jo na mila koi

Koi jo mujhe samajh sake

Mere tanhapan ko

Mere akelepan ko

Lekin yakin hai mujhe mujh par

Zindagi na haarne dunga tujhe main

Jeet lunga tujhe main ek din

Milegi kaamyabi ek na ek din..........